'Twas The Night Before The Test...

Yeah so...

I take my LSATs tomorrow...again. LOL
I took it in 2006, but I was NOT focused, NOT ready to go, and DIDN'T study. (yeah, I WAS trippin'.)
So far so good, I've seen marked improvements in my practice scores. I know I can do this, get a great score and get into a good school. I've been in contact with the ones I want to go to, and I've asked a lot of questions (mostly about how my previous score will affect my admission).
Lots of podunk other schools (mostly ones I don't want to go to) have been boosting my head up, sending me scholarship offers ad inviting me to visit, some based on my previous (crappy) score, so thats good!
Honestly, I just gotta get out of my own head about this thing. I'm so used to being an overachiever, being the top of my class, or just a little bit ahead of the pack...well, I'm scared I may not be good enough to get into law school 'cause this hasn't been as easy for me as other academic endeavors.
WOW.
Does that sound as LAME as it looks to me?
Yeah, I'm trippin.

Wish me luck y'all!

What a Week...

This is not a positive post, so feel free to click the "X" in the corner of your browser.
I just feel so...blah!


Like, I have so much going on, and I'm truly blessed. I realize that.
But I'm not happy.
I hate to whine, I really do. but...
I WANNA BOO! *whiny kid voice*
I'm tired of my only companionship being my girlfriends. And I'm not trying to just settle mind you. I want someone thats REAL and ready for the type of relationship that I want to have. Someone that measures up to my expectations.

I have a male "friend" (meaning he wants to bone, but I'm not having it)that wants to "be with me" (translation=have a lot of sex, maybe possibly make me his girlfriend. SMDH), but I won't give that fool the time of day in a clock shop. Why, you may ask? Sure hes an employed, mobile, educated individual. Moderately attractive and TALL to boot. (y'all know I like dem tall boys)
So why no dice? This man has 2 children. By 2 different women. And I'm sorry, that's not a row I'm tryinta hoe. Its too tuff. Plus, he doesn't want to get married for another 5 years or more. WTF!?! I broke it down for him this way:
-I will be tethered to the NE. If I'm with you, you aren't gonna be moving farther than DC. I want SOUTH of the Mason Dixon sir. No bueno!
-What am I sposed to do while your life plan catches up to mine? I want to be married by 30 at the LATEST; you are already 31 and you tombout another 5 YEARS?!?! So I suppose if I want babies, I gotta be baby mama #3 and just keep my fingers cross that you'll marry my ass, when based on your track record, that ain't happening? o_O
-If by chance all thhatACTUALLY DOES work out, I can't think about just my kids, I gotta think about ALL the kids. I can't just send mine to private school; its not fair to the others. I gotta think about 2 extra gifts at Christmas, 2 additional birthday parties to plan a year...we gotta schedule vacations around our kids' breaks AND when you get visitation...not my idea of fun sir!
Now I'm a bad guy for thinking this way, but men discriminate against women with kids ALL THE TIME. That Guy (Atlanta Guy) and I have discussed this as length. He makes a great point: I've done all I've done and made it this far without any children, why should I have to deal with someone else's mistake for the rest of MY life?
Am I to think if I'm going t have a quality companion, I've gotta to deal with this? SMDH. *wall slide*

I hate happy mofos like this right now. *sigh*